look what you’ve done.
2k24. lookin back on what this year has consisted of is such a bittersweet feeling because all while navigating through the peaks & valleys, so much growth was transpiring & it ultimately led me to being where it is that i am today & for that i am forever grateful. yk we always say that all things happen for a reason & sometimes we question the reasoning behind the things that happen to us but all while there is a reason, there is a purpose. this one is going to be a little bit more personal than usual but we all gotta give back to ourselves & allow all that comes with us have it’s day.
there is a deep sense of appreciation for all life threw @ me in the last 365; it provided an opportunity for me to gather an understanding for the world, people, & my faith. it all comes back around full circle just to say the least & all that is meant to find its way into our lives & our knowing WILL always make itself known. it was all while i had truly hit my rock bottom that most of this understanding transpired & stems from; it almost serves as the foundation for all that comes before & after. one thing after another continued to happen to me & all i could ever ask for is a reason “why?” whether it was being jobless with no money to my name, a really ugly breakup, or the passing of my dog, never did one thing ever seem to outweigh the other but all contributed to finding my way back in the most humble fashion.
i can truly say that it all was a huge learning experience ; a huge mind for insights. this served as a great reminder that it is never in the best interest of one to lean on their own understanding but to turn your heart to God & allow him to place his holy hand over your life & show you what it is that is truly meant for you. trust that once i began to give him that control, the difference was night & day. things that didn’t serve my spirit right found their way out of my life with an ease that felt as close to natural as it possibly could have & the blessings started to unfold & present themselves in ways that i couldn’t begin to explain & now by the good grace of God, i can truly say that i am in the best place of my life that i have ever been & there are no words that can justify the feeling of gratitude i have going into this next year.
from a strong relationship with family who never turned their back on me & stuck with me through the ups & downs, to a love from an individual that knows no conditions. to my family, i thank you all with every bit of me for always believing in me, even when it was hard to believe in myself. you guys all held me up while i was down & showed me that while all else goes wrong, family will always be there. & to my cilla, thank you for showing me that love has no limits. thank you for pushing me to be the best person that i can possibly be & bringing the best out of me every single day. i owe it all to y’all & God, without y’all, i am nothing.
to the person reading this that may be trying to find their way throughout all the adversity they are going through in life, continue to keep pushing. all that is going wrong shall pass & you will find yourself on the other side of things. continue to trust in God & his process he has for you, & continue to serve him & those who are in your life that contribute to your peace. maintain being an honorable person to those who may not always serve you right. continue to always walk with grace & purpose with every step you take. may God be with you & yours, until next time! -rl
